Dear Eva,
You must have read the fairly tale that the princess in the end alway
married to the prince and live happily after. In real life, the ending
may be the same but the process can be really intriguing.
It's a truism that time wash out the memories, hence people often
choose to avoid the confrontation and prefer to be silent, but is it
real good for you? The problem still exists; the feeling won't get
better; the memory still can be found. And so do the people you face
with- me, I share the same deal of the agonies you have.
This is why I didn't feel better during these week, like a
roller-coaster, kept going up and down, from the moment you said "love
me" till the moment you cried - because of him. Imagine myself in your
position, I would certainly try to minimize the damage of both sides by
not loving anyone.
"One day everything will be passed, and you will find a woman better
than me." It's like a spell you try to cast on me, but to me it's more
like a curse that I will never find anyone I truly love. There can be
no words like these can better hurt me, because you want me to leave.
Please stop making any futile attempts to deny yourself and control
my life that can only result to my depression.
As a person who cares deeply about you, I strongly advised you to
embrace the person you love more, and completely disconnect with the
other person. The may sounds cruel to the guy who got kicked out. But
it's actually the best can happen to him. Don't fool yourself again,
by making the excuses that woman and man can still be friends after
they break up. Do this as as soon as possible, time is too precious to
be wasted.
I don't know where and when you would go for the holidays, but I want
to see you sometimes soon. I am confident that I can make you love me
again and forget about those horrible past.
love
Barry
